Substance Sunday - Conquering COVID

It’s been a few weeks since our last entry, but this won’t be a long one, I assure you. By now most of us have been able to witness the negative impact COVID has had on our collective mental state. This isn’t an excuse or a scapegoat to our behavior as addicts and alcoholics. The rise of anxiety and depression is playing into a perfect storm for addicts and alcoholics struggling to cope with isolation, joblessness, stress, external pressures, internal pressures and the list of other contributors to challenging a sound existence in an otherwise chaotic world. 


Some of us have been laid off, with no end in sight. We all know what they say about idle hands, but we all undoubtedly have freedom of choice. We do not need to give in to our inner darkness and sabotage the work we have done on ourselves. Or, if you’re just starting off or thinking about it, you can stop digging wherever you’re ready. If you’re struggling, reach out to someone, anyone. This is not the time to become complacent. 


We have the right to choose. Do we pick up? Do we abstain? Do we rat out our sickness? Do we hide it in shame? 


Speaking for myself, social distancing has been a challenge. Spending my days having to not be around those I love, being confined to a space, the suffocation, the uncertainty of the weeks to come, it has been a difficult challenge to navigate. The doubt that has become a shroud over my bright, young summer days is alien to me. The addict inside me is not comfortable with this unfamiliar feeling; as my responsibilities continue and my career is on pause I feel certain stress. 


I can only control what I can control. I must accept everything around me that is out of my control, to attempt to control such things is unwise and a waste of energy. The beauty of finding peace in this madness is the strength it can build. Each test is designed to make us stronger than before. Without these trials, our road of recovery wouldn’t be worth the effort. 


We are all going to make it. We have been in darker times personally than we all have collectively. We can and we will beat the negative ramifications of this ordeal. If you know someone who is struggling, reach out. If you are struggling, reach out. Thank you for taking the time to read this entry. 

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